One and half hour at CCD

That evening desperately wanted to have a cup of coffee

         things were in a mess ...but guess mess of wat!!!!!! butterflies in my stomach, wanted to be surrounded by flowers, music that could make me dance on my toes, but the best part was ,,,,this mess was not a result of any complains or unfulfilled desires or dreams...it was so blissful ....wanted to think again why is it all happening again...they say "HISTORY REPEATS" but certainly is everything so precise ???????...that differentiating between is a tough task ahead....

it has been good 5 months ...and this is so all fascinating but with an element of uncertainty as always ..still those two deadly sides of a coin....i want to dress, to dance, to drive...be forgetful , be an oblivion on this planet....things have chnaged in  fractions of second.....but sumthing which remains the same is that m still far from commitments, and deadlines.....was sitting with a cup of coffee and was trying to think absolutely absurd,,,like ..wish if tere existed an office were there we no reporting bosses and timings....no Targets, no rules, but only birthdays bashes. party animals, music gifts....and amidst all sumone whom culd make u fall in love with life.....and suddenly my blackberry rang and guess wat ..."BOSS  CALLING"..WAKE UP DARLING .....things only existed in fascination....but i was in love with it ...

another thought was travelling to and fro...m cuming closer and closer to a time which m still not prepared ,,,,dont want to share sumone else's surname ....really dont want to be responsible wife ,,,and then a loving mother ....and finally so many knots of relationships...no i dont want that ?????....the more these things cum closer the more far i want to go....so that they can never catch me ....its like paying "HIDE & SEEK"...but it is actually "A LOT CAN HAPPEN OVER A COFFEE"...and m back to work.....

        

METRO(23 NOV)

Waking up early in the morning to catch the first metro that cumes my way ,so that I can be on time to my office…rushing on those accelators so that I can catch the one at the station rather than waiting for the second one….and finally after panting breathlessly I won that victory of catching the first metro..”oh god thanks ..i managed to catch this one”…

Its is journey for 2 hours seemed like how and will this hour pass!! Lots of thoughts came …is it to watch pple in, or is to hear students talk”yaar maine kuch prepare ni kiya ….wat will happen to my scores”, “aaj Organizational behaviour ke teacher absent hone wali hai”,”I dumped Rahul before he cud actually try that on me”, “urwashi rocks in Big Boss”pple discussing their daily chores of life …but this is just one hour …wat to do with the next one hour this is me pondering over sumthing or the other…and then suddenly heard “There will be a short delay , we apologise for the inconvenience” and  now I have sumthing else to think of in the next hour!!!!!wow…..Y damn this metro!!!!!”aaj to mai time par thhi”

Wat next …called mah frnds..hey gal”WHAT’s UP” anything new in stores…To which the reply is much expected haan “yaar kat ri hai… “hmmmmm..now wat iske paass bhi kuch time pass ni nikla..nd .realised that there is lot to say behind “kat ri hai “so many things are hidden, undiscovered , unloved, un forgettable, unbelievable…with a fear of confession, fear to loose sumthing , fear to be lonely ..sumtimes fear of being getting loved…lot of mess is around..lot many twist and turns, surprises and shocks but still we have to move on just as this metro is …inspite of these delays….and next station is “dwarka SEC 10” …so the journey ends…hope I have a good day in office today….!!!!!!!