One and half hour at CCD

That evening desperately wanted to have a cup of coffee

         things were in a mess ...but guess mess of wat!!!!!! butterflies in my stomach, wanted to be surrounded by flowers, music that could make me dance on my toes, but the best part was ,,,,this mess was not a result of any complains or unfulfilled desires or dreams...it was so blissful ....wanted to think again why is it all happening again...they say "HISTORY REPEATS" but certainly is everything so precise ???????...that differentiating between is a tough task ahead....

it has been good 5 months ...and this is so all fascinating but with an element of uncertainty as always ..still those two deadly sides of a coin....i want to dress, to dance, to drive...be forgetful , be an oblivion on this planet....things have chnaged in  fractions of second.....but sumthing which remains the same is that m still far from commitments, and deadlines.....was sitting with a cup of coffee and was trying to think absolutely absurd,,,like ..wish if tere existed an office were there we no reporting bosses and timings....no Targets, no rules, but only birthdays bashes. party animals, music gifts....and amidst all sumone whom culd make u fall in love with life.....and suddenly my blackberry rang and guess wat ..."BOSS  CALLING"..WAKE UP DARLING .....things only existed in fascination....but i was in love with it ...

another thought was travelling to and fro...m cuming closer and closer to a time which m still not prepared ,,,,dont want to share sumone else's surname ....really dont want to be responsible wife ,,,and then a loving mother ....and finally so many knots of relationships...no i dont want that ?????....the more these things cum closer the more far i want to go....so that they can never catch me ....its like paying "HIDE & SEEK"...but it is actually "A LOT CAN HAPPEN OVER A COFFEE"...and m back to work.....