WORTH ......

M not in love with this morning .....m disturbed. with  many things around.. what is right and what is wrong sometimes gets really difficult to decide on..she said this is right time to disclose ...but wat if  my wish is not granted ......every time there is   an urge a desperation  to see, to feel, to hear, to love, to admire, to adore, ...and to live every emotion to every extreme. last night cud not sleep well..is it all about being explanatory at all points of time...every thing was damn spontaneous that didnt even gave thought that the situation wud actually be so messed up ...different pple with different perceptions..I will not enter  until i feel your damn fragrance was the thought last night ....it felt ...as if i really dunt want to be cared for..." strange... it is actully wired to be feeling like this"..  .....really dunt want to explain everything to everyone...it felt as if he is no were ...".but how to explain his WORTH" was the fault really that big that it is not pardonable...or things are like that .....there is constant fear of abandoning that expression...making everything incomplete...as this note is ....want to express but m speechless.....this silence is being the most trusted partner as of now....

lost and lonely

Some days back my frend said that some element is missing ..m not the same ...but i ignored and at the othe r end agreed to the fact ....just didnt wanted to reveal..and same thing repeated the other day while travelling via metro....i was in his cabin and he explained that a wrong decision can completely ruin you ...and making a new start is really not easy....i' m angry , m frustrated, helpless at times ..this world is not acceptable , pple are not acceptable, "is this really not meant for me"? its all about involvement about the determination if yes....then what is lacking.... this perplexity is not willing to leave me .....feeling like getting drunked till extreme .... wants to be completely blank ..even that cup of coffee fails to make over things back my way .....getting wet in the rain ...is not my desire these days...not willing to accept the change.....dont know wen will things be on track the way i want them ....hane always accepted everything with both hands what life has to really offer but this time ...life seems to be unjustifiable...recognition, appreciations, applauses, praises are not cuming my way ....i'm a free bird and dont want to loose my independence....dunt want to be in prison of sumone elses desire.....feels so lonely

SHE'S MY FAVOURITE

She's a darling at heart ....remember wen i first met her in Mumbai ..with absolute starangenes...without knowing that in  a very short span of time i'll admit this that" shes mahh favourite" shes can be anyones favourite ..really dunt understand that there s sumthing which s why talking to her helps me , she laughs with me , she cries with me, there is a positivity around her .. today was sumwere unexpected ...GUess what i got a mail from Boss of sumthing which was in planning ..only left to be executed and finally a mail dropped in my mailbox...with she sitting aside ....i wasn't actually  angry carrying out the task , but sumthing was troubling me...but her reactions were as usual....(laughung laughing ) we both were laughing like as is if we were waiting for it eagerly ....sumwere we both were prepared ....but she has that charisma in her which can help anybody to get relievof his/her stress, she has beautiful Eyes, lovely hairs,,,and guess wat pple at work are crasy for her hairs. she has a lovely smile  which can easily create an atmosphere of blissfulness any were , shes a frend  a colleague a darling and a perfect partner ......i simply love to get engaged in her naughtiness and play all sort of stupid pranks.....to laugh on all sort of stupid jokes....to play on all sort of absurd things....i never even thought that there will be a person whom i 'll be really fond of.....she's "SUHANI" my Roommate ......Shes an angel .....this is not suffice to describe her ....but geuss what i have run for my coffee...my best wishes to her ....and hope .....this is sumthing which exist till i exist on this beautiful earth.......